Poison_kitty

poison_kitty @ 2005-09-17T17:31:00

2005-09-17T16:31:00Z

gosh, havent written in this for a while. Well bob has bought me a clio and is taxing it for me, I'll get that soon.
My phone died so I'm getting a new and improved one too :D
thats all thats happened so far :(

poison_kitty @ 2005-09-10T23:32:00

2005-09-10T22:34:42Z

There are some things women can't do. Thats a fact of life. But US Navy seal isnt one of them. GI Jane rawks :D

poison_kitty @ 2005-09-09T23:08:00

2005-09-09T22:10:14Z

hmm. New game = semi good.

Multiplayer freezes every time I try to host a network game though, am hoping that it gets fixed at some point.

Myspace friends = 6 so far. The two andys, bob and some other random people. Including a really decent band called the compulsives. I suggest you listen to some of their stuff, theyre very good. url follows!

http://www.myspace.com/thecompulsives

That's all for now, except I havent been able to breathe today like, at all. Not in a painful way, just feels like someone heavy is sitting on my chest, and I have to make a concious effort to breathe. Weird. And andy's not been online all day that I've noticed. and that bloody w32.lop virus is begining to p*ss me right off, since I tried to delete it in safe mode and I dont appear to have gotten all of it. again. bloody thing.

poison_kitty @ 2005-09-09T01:14:00

2005-09-09T00:16:18Z

I've come to the realization that the saying "A watched pot never boils" also applies to downloads. I'm downloading something biiiiig on bit torrent and it's taking forever, and it's not like it's being all slow about getting there either, it's actually speeding along. But I can't wait until it's done so that I can burn it and play it (yep you guessed it, it's another game), so hopefully my older version of alcohol 120% will burn it properly without me resorting to using daemon tools like I did with it's prequel. Also, I have a new thing at www.myspace.com/Poison_kitty so go and add me. now. or else there will be no cookies.

poison_kitty @ 2005-09-08T02:05:00

2005-09-08T01:08:07Z

Why is it that as soon as black and white 2 has a scheduled release date within the next two months, my dad suddenly decides that we need a new computer, and we have to get rid of this one first? not that I'm complaining because I'll have a brand spanking new state of the art machine to play it on, but it also means that I wont be able to play it on it's release date :(

Has any of you people reading this got a myspace thingy? I know I've already asked but I'm asking again. Comment people! I want to know if you *havent* got one too ya know.

Sometimes I wonder if your all dead inside. or just plain ol' dead!

poison_kitty @ 2005-09-06T16:39:00

2005-09-06T15:39:39Z

Bored bored bored bored bored. Talking to Andy. Although thats not why I'm bored.

poison_kitty @ 2005-09-04T23:07:00

2005-09-04T22:07:25Z

urgh I just watched the horse whisperer again, it always makes me cry. It sort of brings home to me how dangerous it is to dedicate your life to such noble but unpredictable animals, and lucky to be in receipt of such unconditional love and affection. The only way i can describe the feeling of it is by saying that when you know your horse loves you, they dont have to say it or express it, you just know, and it doesnt matter whether you are pretty or a good rider or you bring them lots of treats or if your overweight or something, it just matters that you're you. And thats possibly why I could never love another human being the way I love horses, because I know that deep down, theyre not judging me by what exam grades I got, or saying that I need to work harder or faster. It's kinda nice to have a friend like that.

poison_kitty @ 2005-09-04T12:38:00

2005-09-04T11:38:28Z

The Romantic Lover
59% partner focus, 57% aggressiveness, 40% adventurousness

Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to be traditional rather than daring or out-of-the-ordinary, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Romantic Lover.

The Romantic Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and is the hallmark of young love--the Romantic Lover often loves the idea of being in love, and being a wonderful lover, and so they try to bring their prospective partners every bit of joy or happiness that they can. They are the serenaders, and the ones to rent carriages in the park or take a gondola ride down a canal. The Romantic Lover is a treasure to find, though they sometimes are prone to being hurt if their advances are ignored or harshly rebuffed.

In terms of physical love, the Romantic Lover can seem shy, but usually it is simply a by-product of wanting to be perfect for their lover, and often needs some extra encouragement and re-assurance to truly feel at ease. Given a special, intimate evening, and the right lover, the Romantic Lover can be a delight in bed.

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Classic Lover (most of all) or the Suave Lover, or the Exotic Lover.

Congratulations!

If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following:

Nerds, Geeks & Dorks

Professional Wrestling

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

America/Politics

Thanks Again! -- THE LOVER STYLE PROFILE TEST

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 54% on partner focus

You scored higher than 54% on aggressiveness

You scored higher than 20% on adventurousness

Link: The Lover Style Profile Test written by donathos on OkCupid Free Online Dating

poison_kitty @ 2005-09-04T01:23:00

2005-09-04T00:23:13Z

William Powell
You scored 14% Tough, 28% Roguish, 23% Friendly, and 33% Charming!

You are the classic rogue, a stylish rake with the devil of a wit and a flair for mischief, and you shake your martinis to waltz time. You are charming and debonair, but slightly untrustworthy, and women should be on their guard. If married, you are simply a bit of a flirt, even if it's just with your own wife...but if you're single, watch out. You usually rein yourself in to concentrate on one lovely beauty at a time, but with you, we never know. You're an inviting partner, but there's a playful devil behind your eyes, and those trying to get close to you should know they're playing with fire. You're stylish and fun, but you follow your own course, which may or may not include a steady gal. Co-stars include Myrna Loy and Carole Lombard, classy ladies with an adventurous streak.

Find out what kind of classic dame you'd make by taking the Classic Dames Test.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 14% on Tough

You scored higher than 87% on Roguish

You scored higher than 32% on Friendly

You scored higher than 62% on Charming

Link: The Classic Leading Man Test written by gidgetgoes on Ok Cupid

poison_kitty @ 2005-09-03T18:52:00

2005-09-03T17:52:57Z

People should comment more.

This has been a customer service announcement.

This message will self destruct um, some time in the next century possibley.

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-29T22:51:00

2005-08-29T21:51:11Z

How much of a computer geek are you?

Microsoft certified

You are a God amongst men. The things you can do with a computer boggle the brain, beggar belief and alliterate Bs in general. You can make databases, spreadsheets and documents which are viewable by 90% of the home computing population. I bet you even have a spyware remover program. You're so impressive I may have peed a little.

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poison_kitty @ 2005-08-27T21:53:00

2005-08-27T20:53:42Z

Another boring day. played dungeon siege, theme hospital and one must fall. it's awesome, it really is, except I'm up to the third tournament in an hour and I havent lost a match yet. ho hum.

I was thinking last night, about virtual reality, and how neat it'd be in some of the games we play at the moment. I mean, how cool would it be to say, be the person running around killing things/solving puzzles? it'd certainly work with RPGs and FPSs like diablo 2, dungeon siege and quake, but how would it work with the god-type games like black and white and civilization? It would certainly be cute as hell if you could really pet your norns in the Creatures series (or beat up your grendels!) but would it be such a good use of the technology if the game in question were to just incorporate you as a flying ethereal being that nothing could really see?

And then I got to thinking, what about all the new games that would be created? I think I can garuntee that the amount of x-rated games would go through the roof! It'd be like having a girlfriend/boyfriend without all the mess thats associated with them! But would that mean that some sad individuals (or those with WAY too much time on their hands) would just dissapear into their virutal reality worlds, only surfacing for food and drink? because lets face it, theres really nothing to stop you sleeping in your little made up world, is there? You wouldnt really need to worry about social interaction either, because chat rooms would really become rooms. All those people you talk to online, and only really know as words on a screen, could finally become people, although if they have any sense they will airbrush the image they present of themselves! I mean, if you had the opurtunity, would you prefer people saw you in your pajamas, or in some super-sexy evening atire?

There are lots of moral implications to be argued over, including the usual "do we want our children (and our children's children!) talking to, and seeing complete strangers over the internet? Well that one is going to be ever present, regardless of the medium chosen to do so. Also, depending on how realistic some of these FPSs are, and we all know that a lot of companies like to get every detail correct in their games, would we technically be training civillians in the art of warfare, using some of the most advanced equipment that these companies can think of? Wouldnt this be a little dangerous, especially in the mindset of a child? (or in fact, some adults I know too). But where training is concerned, i think there could actually be a great advantage to this sort of technology in most training establishments. Think of the benefits in the medical industry? surgeons could simulate different types of surgeries for practice. In schools, teachers could hold a "virtual science lab" to prevent accidents from using real chemicals in experiments. Even in sports training, taking my own experience from the equine industry, you could learn to perfect your technique without ever endangering yourself by being six foot high in the air with an unpredictable animal between your thighs.

I may add to this later, but for the moment I can't think of anything else I want to say. < /rant>

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-22T21:06:00

2005-08-22T20:06:51Z

Found a really funny and mildly appropriate picture, Needless to say when bob saw it he wasnt too enamoured with it as I was

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-18T20:48:00

2005-08-18T19:48:36Z

Another productive day was today. I converted some oxyen into co2, made some energy out of random carbs, and played dungeon siege all day. I'm up to veteren level with my mage dude.

Had some really weird dreams last night. One of which I can remember I was messing about with some friends buying love potions and shit, and they all started to piss me off trying to throw them at me, and I got really really miffed and started making things blow about *all on theyre own* without the help of potions and stuff. And they were like all "oooooooOOOOOOooooooo" etc etc. I woke up with the distinct memory of (in real life) being able to turn pages with my mind. I've not actually had the guts to test this theory yet cuz I'll be rather sad if I can't ;)

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-18T20:42:00

2005-08-18T19:42:46Z

1. Grab the nearest book.

2. Open the book to page 123.

3. Find
the fifth sentence.

4. Post the text of the sentence in your
journal...along with these instructions.

5. Don't search around and look
for the "coolest" book you can find. Do what's actually next to you.

"Phuntog wangyal is still alive, though very old now." Thats an excerpt from "freedom in exile:the autobiography of the dalai lama of tibet

Blame syrra again, not me.

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-17T16:46:00

2005-08-17T15:46:24Z

Found a rather interesting game at http://www.chaoseed.com/phantasma.com It's sort of like a web-based adventure/rpg type thing, currently in alpha testing. Its worth a look at least.
Feel like crap today, another three days of ovary ache and then I can get on with my life for another month at least.

I had the weirdest dream last night, and I'm a bit worried about it to tell you the truth. I dreamt I saw a small atomic bomb fall in a river, in my dream it must have been the mersey, because I saw it from my window. then everything went really light, and then really dark, and I remember afterwards it stayed quite dark, like it was dusk, but it was still around noonish. I remember some time on from that, maybe a few days, my next door neighbour offered to show me how to throw grenades effectively ( he was in the army, so he should know!) and we practiced on a house i vaguely recognised. When I asked about the choice of targets, he told me that everyone there had "succumbed" and anyone left alive in there would be happy for death in any case. I remember this distinctly, because when I next looked at the house it's windows were in the process of shattering, it was all happening really slowly, and it looked like when you lightly tread on a frozen-over puddle and you see the cracks forming and the ripples of cracking ice around your toes. It was a weird dream because usually my nightmares are trigured from me lying on my back (which I wasnt) or from something I'd been thinking about the previous day (nothing springs to mind), and after all this terrorist activity of late, it has me wondering... I really hope it's nothing.

On a lighter note, read this - http://www.terrybisson.com/meat.html I found it really quite funny :p

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-17T01:25:00

2005-08-17T00:25:38Z

Blame syrra. thats all I'm saying.

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-16T21:55:00

2005-08-16T20:55:23Z

A yes, I know what I wanted to say. Some of you on my msn contact list will now be thinking, "who is this shrodinger, and why is his cat so important?" WELL.
Shrodinger was a physicist around the time of world war 2, and in 1935 he published a paper outlining the fact that when we observe something happening, like for example, life, we are actually changing the thing that we are observing, because until we observe it, that thing exists in all possible states simultaneously. He used as an example, his cat, in a box with a lid. He said that "before looking into the box the cat is stuck in a quantum sea of aliveness and deadness" and by looking at it, it changes state from being both, to being one. It's a lot more complicated than that, and possibly involved killing the cat with a vial of hydrocyanic acid. But i can in all honesty say that Shrodinger's cat is dead. Come on, it's been like, 70 years!

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-14T18:53:00

2005-08-14T17:53:41Z

ok my computer's really starting to annoy me. I made the mistake once, when installing msn plus, to accidently click yes on their sponsourship program thingy, and ever since I've had no end of trouble. My browser's homepage keeps being reset to http://searchweb2.com/ I get poppups the like of which I'm best not to talk about, and theres always two unaccounted-for instances of internet explorer running, which when I try to end, some program pops up called "compglobal.exe" which I presume then restarts the instance I closed, and then removes itself. I've tried deleting compglobal but i cant, it just says the program is in use. Adaware can't seem to get rid of it, although I have to admit that at least it recognises it now, the last version didnt. Oh yes and every time I restart I get these icons on my desktop, stuff like "my antivirus update" and "ringtones" and other bits and pieces. Normally when you left click you get a huge huge menu, but on those I only ever get "delete". which is weird. I'm thinking about formatting and resintalling windows, but I don't have a clue where I'd put all my crap in the mean time. I only mention this because I left something important running last night, and of course windows decides that it's a good time to install a "critical security update" and restart. It's blatently obvious that windows was invented by a man.

Have you ever noticed, when your filling in your current mood, theres like tonnes and tonnes of random "moods" like exanimate, that you don't have the foggiest about what they actually feel like? I mean, have I ever been exanimate? If you don't know the word for a certain mood, do you still feel that mood? It's like in 1984 when theyre planning to do away with all the words that describe deviancies to the regime, so as people couldn't actually think those deviant thoughts in the first place. I wonder if that would actually work? Or just make people uncomfortable to the point of insanity.
Talking of weird regimes, I am reading "Freedom in exile: the autobiography of the dalai lama of tibet" and I'm up to the bit where he meets chairman mao. He puts forward a very good theory about the relationship between marxism and buddhism. For marxism to work, people have to be compassionate (the buddhism bit) to each other, which is all fine and dandy for the epitome of compassion, but less enlightened people have difficulty feeling any sort of compassion for more than around 100 people in their lifetimes. which is pretty pittiful in my view.

I had a really weird dream last night. I dreamt I was going to a car show, like, all the way across the country, and Mark Birkitt ( my senior warden at Lackham college) offered to stick my Mg in the back of his trailer, which he would tow with his Landrover that he was also taking. The plan was that I would follow him up in my other car, which I think was a corsa or something, but I like, got tonnes of understeer going around a roundabout too fast and ended up putting myself into a hedge. Luckily I was fine and there was only a little paint scratched on the car, but I remember getting stressed about phoning him to let him know, cos by this time he was way in the distance. I remember thinking that he wouldnt like me to phone him when he was driving. Anyway, I'm there messing with my phone, and one of my old lecturers from widnes comes up and offers me some credit from her phone because she thinks I've run out. So I patiently explain that I'm on a contract, and she's all like "and we let you into college with that?". She then makes some derogatory comment about being in a pub and something about alcohol (I dont know, just don't ask) and stalks off. At which point two of my other lecturers from widnes come up to me and are chatting, then one of them squirts ink at me, laugh and run away. At which point I notice I'm wearing a white silk shirt, and they really don't like ink. But that was the end, and if there is meaning in all dreams, I'd hate to think what that one was trying to tell me!

I have this urge to mess about in bryce again and do something creative to submit to www.deviantart.com ( my personal gallery is at http://poison-kitty.deviantart.com/gallery/ ) but I don't have even an ounce of inspiration on what to do :(

Oh, and you are all uncommenting bar stewards. I havent had one since like, the 9th of august, and even then it was only chani demanding to know my secret identity!

EDIT: I forgot to mention, after all that ranting, that I have found something cool about http://www.ctrl-alt-del-online.com and that is, the little icon in the corner changes each time you refresh! So far my favourite comments are "if you take your eyes off my chest for a second, you can watch me kick your ass at tekken" and "Of course gaming girls exist, you just have to leave the house once in a while to find us" and "Losing to a girl doesn't make you any less of a man". I hate that both that and http://www.penny-arcade.com don't update at the weekends. thats like, my whole source of amusement each day. In other words, I have to make my own ammusement of a weekend. which sucks.

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-13T01:05:00

2005-08-13T00:05:36Z

Well I've got two rounds done on my little project. I ironed out some difficulties regarding decimals: since vb 5 (I'm hopelessly outdated, but then modern technology is beyond me :p) doesnt like Decimal as datatype for a variable unless you come up with some really imaginative code (from what the help file tells me anyway) I resorted to using Double, which seems to work at the moment at least. After I got round 1 nailed, Round 2 was just a case of cutting and pasting (where the code was concerned anyway) and a few minor changes, but the interface took a little longer.
I'm going to go play dungeon siege now, did I mention how long it took to patch after i installed it? well let me put it to you this way, I endured a half hour of it making my computer super-slow, to the point I could type a sentance, sit back and watch all the letters come up, then I went to watch neighbours (about 20 minutes) and then I came back for another five minutes of sitting there WATCHING IT complete. I was going for that whole "If I stare at you hard enough you'll feel guilty for taking so long and be quicker". Trust me, that DOESNT Work.

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-12T00:25:00

2005-08-11T23:25:47Z

Well, I fell asleep for like, hours and hours, I woke up at like, 11 pm and missed the entire show, and now I cant sleep either. I am not a happy bunny.
A plus point of this though is that I've had time to think about a project that is under way in visual basic, I've scrapped my idea of using list boxes for a return to commands buttons and new form windows. it's simple to look at and simple to code, but considering the problems I had with having everything in one window before, Ive not come up against any problems more complicated than fitting all the questions into the form (i solved that be resizing and rewording some of the text). The one bad thing about using this method is that it's long winded and repetitive, and with my lack of visual basic skills, I cant think of a way to reduce the amount of code that's needed. Oh well.
On the subject of andy, I spoke to him before on msn, and, well, it was tense, he was snappy and in a hurry, and the impression I get is one of "it's all your fault, so just apologise and be done with it". We pointedly didn't talk about what was said the other night. It's so frustrating, because theres so much I want him to understand about me. I really hope this isnt the begining of the end.

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-11T13:11:00

2005-08-11T12:11:43Z

I hate it when you have a really brilliant idea, in like, the middle of the night, and then when you wake up in the morning you can't remember it. Specifically, I came to a conclusion about some stuff regarding andy, and now i can't even remember what it was. I think it was pretty profound too. I'm still going to his gig tonight, if we patch things up then that's great, if we don't, then at least I can't be seen to be taking it lying down (not that i wouldnt take him lying down mind you!). The only problem i have is that I don't know when theyre kicking off, and the only way to find out would be to phone him, which i really don't wanna do if he's gonna be with people, or busy or something. He's a bit like alex in the respect that he sometimes completely turns off when he's around people. Fingers crossed anyway, I really miss those big soulfull eyes of his...

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-10T12:36:00

2005-08-10T11:36:21Z

CARLYFIONA
C	is for	Charismatic
A	is for	Alert
R	is for	Responsible
L	is for	Logical
Y	is for	Young
F	is for	Funky
I	is for	Intense
O	is for	Outgoing
N	is for	Nervy
A	is for	Adaptable

What Does Your Name Mean?

poison_kitty @ 2005-08-10T11:11:00

2005-08-10T10:12:17Z

Last night I joined deviantart and uploaded my first few digital landscapes, and a sepia photograph I took whilst out hunting last season. you can see them here.

Andy

2005-08-09T21:45:43Z

urgh, I couldn't feel worse right now. Ive been feeling a bit down recently, coz I felt like andy was losing interest in me, so I decided to ask him about it. anyway, I couldnt have picked a worse time, but of course I didn't know this until I'd said what I wanted to say, and now he's in a BIG mood with me. I dunno if I should be apologising to him for my timing, or he to me for being so callous with my feelings. Trouble is, I know he's not wanting a relationship right now, but i dunno if that's just cos it's me or whether it's a universal feeling. I'm not trying to say that I want to have a relationship with him, I just want him to reciprocate the feelings I have for him, whether or not something comes of it. I can honestly say I've loved him since the day I met him 6 years ago, and although I've been out with other men, through it all I've felt exactly the same way about him.
I know at the moment, I make out like he's an ogre, but the truth is, that throughout our friendship, he's always been a reliable shoulder to cry on and he always says the right things about the right people at the right moment. He's the sort of friend that wouldnt hesitate to set you up with a suitable mate, and put in a good word for you and stuff. He's the manager at a local bar, and I know that when I'm in there, I'm as safe as houses coz he's there keeping an eye on me. I really hope that this isn't going to get awkward between us, whatever happens in the long run, because that sort of friend is worth any amount of heartache.